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TITLE: My Journey in Space | Previous Challenge Entry
By Evelyn Sprouse Rowe
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My entrance into a reality that is peaceful and peace filled is finally possible after years of anxiety and depression; fear and worry.
God's way of working with each one of us is unique. We truely travel our personal journeys. No two journeys are alike. There are so many different variables that make up a life. So many variables in a problem.
Prayer, therapy, exercise, diet, meditation are just a few I integrated into and adjusted in my life, to help overcome my health problem of many years of sadness and stress. Thankfully God was working me through "my life". ..allowing my healing to take place at my pace and in a way that worked best for me.
At the right time and after many changes and approaches; adjustments and attempts.. I came to a moment of clarity an 'aha' moment. An almost abrupt improvement came as I was listening to a meditation. It prompted me to accept my circumstances.... if I couldn't change them or wasn't going to change them...and stated not to do so was insanity!
I had never really made a concious choice to accept my present life circumstances. I was in a 30-year marriage relationship. But I was not happy in it. I was on the fence about a marriage I was not choosing to leave, or was not able to change for reasons I couldn't come clear on. This was keeping me in extreme anxiety. I had listened to the words before. But I hadn't "really" heard them or accepted this challenge to "accepted what I wasn't changing".
I listened closely, as I took slow, deep breaths, as I was lead to conciously become aware of each object and its place and the space around each...I focused on being present...present specifically in the presence of God.
Becoming aware of my surroundings and space in stillness and focusing on each object slowed my mind. I could actually visualize and feel the space between my thoughts. My thoughts slowed, my racing thoughts slowed down! A state my mind had been in for years had changed. I could literally feel my mind enter a relaxed state.
In these more recent years, and considering what had happened during that 'aha' moment, I have gone on to allow myself space. Space to value my personal space. Space to really appreciate space. To make sacred and personal time for as much space as I need to stay healthy.
I've come to realize, after this healing experience, and over 4 years of mostly anxiety free living, God's timing and spacing in my life, in his presence, are whats most important. I focus on breathing consciously and I remember to allow me space to BE. And I know I am fullfilling some basic human needs we all share.
When we avoid meeting these kinds of needs we can become and be out of balance. No one thing will fix it. I had to implement many things over 20 years of a health crisis to finally BE in a better state of mental health. It took time and space to learn as I grew through my life.
The ability to arrive at this peace, and peace to sleep better even when I wake at midnight, is the peace I experience now! A peace no longer unreachable because of a mind ran by racing thoughts. Through becoming AWARE of the SPACE around things I HEARD the words that helped. I ACCEPTED my situation knowing "not to", was a bad choice. I wasnt going to change it. I know this was a calm space that I needed. It slowed me down enough to make space for PEACE.
My husband and I are still married. We have made space between us. We were blessed with more room. We inherited another house and find healing and individual closeness to God....for now...something we had not "really " known we needed. WE ARE IN THE SPACE and place to heal at our own pace. WE are BOTH putting God first in the right and proper SPACE at THIS time!
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