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Previous Challenge Entry (Level 2 – Intermediate)
Topic: Charade (08/14/08)
From outward appearances, I have it all together. I am Wonder Woman. Things are organized and schedules are arranged seemingly effortlessly. Items are sent to school in a timely manner, cards are sent on time, and everyone gets to practices. I manage to juggle my family, the house, and teaching, I have it down to a science. I am a go-getter and full of confidence.

I am here to tell you that it’s a sham. Things are not as smooth as they appear to be. Time is not my friend. He’s stingy; never sharing with me as much as he should. My candle burns at both ends. Before long they will meet. I have plates- too many to count- spinning around me, I am rushing to keep them all from crashing around me. Am I controlling them or are they controlling me?

There are days, weeks even, that I feel so far behind, completely overwhelmed. My mask of confidence is just that. I hide behind a facade. What I really want to do is throw up my hands and just give up. Sit down and have a good cry. Scream at the top of my lungs. Let go of this Wonder Woman mentality. But that would mean coming out of hiding and admitting that I can’t do it all. Letting people see my flaws and weaknesses. I’m afraid of what would happen if I lose the mask. The big question is just what am I afraid of. Am I afraid to find out that things will fall apart if I step back? Or am I more afraid that they WON’T?

So I keep my mask firmly in place. I keep pushing myself forward. Look, I can do it all, I scream at the world. While inside I wish to curl up in a tiny ball and simply cry. Only God can help me overcome this, and I pray nightly that He guide me from behind my mask and allow me to live more peacefully rather than busily.
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Anita van der Elst
08/22/08
Oh, and I hope sincerely that you do! Been there, honey. Thank you for being vulnerable in this place.
Jan Ackerson
08/22/08
Yep, we've all been there. Thanks for being transparent with us!
Marlene Austin
08/26/08
An openly personal entry, which allows the reader to feel the conflict in this precious heart. I hope you continue praying for God's assistance in letting go of those things which you continually, and needlessly, cling to. You might be surprised at those who are waiting, even longing, for you to release some of your "responsibilities" so they may help you. It is so much more a blessing to give than to receive. Allow some in your life to gain that blessing by being able to give to you. God Bless :)
Patty Wysong
08/26/08
I love how clearly you conveyed the sham and the emotions tied to it--excellent job! You didn't just leave us there, either, and that is sooo important.