Previous Challenge Entry (Level 1 – Beginner)
Topic: Brown (11/26/09)
-
TITLE: The Muddy Road | Previous Challenge Entry
By Uzoamaka Eneli
11/28/09 -
LEAVE COMMENT ON ARTICLE
SEND A PRIVATE COMMENT
ADD TO MY FAVORITES
I must be loosing my mind or close to it. If not, how can I be walking slowly down this brown muddy road under the rain risking catching pneumonia or worse? But I don’t care; nothing matters to me any more.
About 2 months ago, I was walking down this same road around 7pm. I had finished late at the shop where I was walking as a receptionist just to make some money during the holidays. The bus-stop was 15mins away but I had only 10mins to get there or miss the bus. So, I took a shortcut.
It wasn’t a bush path just an alley that ran behind the shop but lead to the bus-stop in exactly 5mins less the usual route. I follow that alley often especially when I’m late for work and I don’t want Mrs. Tolu to see me from her office window.
I was brisk walking praying that I get there in time to catch the bus. I passed a shadow by the corner but nothing dangerous flashed my mind after all it was just a shadow nothing more.
After I passed the shadow I felt someone stalking me but I was nearing the bus-stop so, I didn’t look back to find out if I really was. The next I knew was a big hand with a sweet smelling handkerchief over my nose and mouth. It took a few second and all was black.
I woke up 15mins later besides the corner where I first saw the shadow. My jean was lying by my side and my top had been torn from top to bottom. I was hazy and didn’t comprehend what had happened till I tried to sit up. A dull pain went through between my legs, I looked down and the brownish red blood tickling down confirmed my worst fears. I have been raped!
I went back to the shop that I locked 30mins ago, cleaned up, wore a spare shirt I kept in my office drawer and somehow found myself home. But I told no one. I was too shocked to reconcile that it happened to me. I told my self it was a bad dream that the memory will fade if only I could forget. I held myself together or so I thought till a month later.
I was late. 2 weeks late! It had never happened before. I panicked! I could not concentrate at work. I couldn’t sit still so I bought a home test on my home. I followed the instructions and the result was positive.
I cried! For the 1st time after the rape I wept, so ready to die, wishing that I had been murdered a month ago. I thought hard that night and made up my mind. So, the next morning I went to the clinic. They did another test to confirm. They told me that it will take only 30mins.
Indeed, it took 30mins but I never had my mind after that. I walked around feeling that a part of me had died. I saw no reason to neither smile nor laugh. I feel that I can never be forgiven even though I ask myself if I had any other option.
So, I seek sanity. I seek forgiveness for I know that God has said that though my sin be like scarlet, they shall be white as snow. Isaiah 1:18
Walking down this brown muddy road under the rain, I pray that as the water washes the mud away so will His mercy wash me.
The opinions expressed by authors may not necessarily reflect the opinion of FaithWriters.com.
If you died today, are you absolutely certain that you would go to heaven? You can be right now. CLICK HERE
JOIN US at FaithWriters for Free. Grow as a Writer and Spread the Gospel.
