TITLE: Rain Of Pain By Cori Mann 03/22/08 |
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Someone you knew was just right
You only asked for my obedience and patience,
As you prepared a time for he and I to meet
Instead I grew impatient with your plan,
Sadly, I didn't wait for the one you chose
I met a man whom I chose to marry,
Today I am going to be his bride
Now husband and wife we began our lives together,
As any new bride I looked forward to our future
He took those vows that were said that day,
Twisted them around carrying them out his way
The man I chose did not follow your way,
For he had a dark plan of his own
Unaware of the disaster my choice would bring,
Before too long I found myself captive to him
He was rageful and violent most of the time,
Yelling and hitting me by day and by night
A dark cloud of despair set into my heart,
Rain came down telling the horrible truth
I was living in fear of the man I chose,
Terror and fear came in the wake of each day
It was always a mystery what would happen next,
Never knowing when the next time he would explode
The days turned to months and then a few years,
Little by little I was slipping away from myself
Shattered,battered and destroyed inside,
I would cry out to you for help and comfort
Although you were near and watching,
You were silent and I did not know why
The abuse kept happening day after day,
I felt guilty and blamed myself for it all
For being so weak and not standing tall,
Allowing my fear of him to make me fall
Deeper and deeper into this mess I fell,
Until I could not see anything else at all
Just terrible sorrow and neverending pain,
My rain of pain was a long season in time
My whole life was controlled by him,
Battered by his forces of violence
I had to get out and the time was now,
The only question in my mind was how?
It took me five years of marriage to be free,
Now that I am I now know why you were silent
Though you were there and you still loved me,
You allowed me to make my own painful decision
Now years later I can see what you meant for me,
To be loved by a godly man who loves his Lord
I know now if I had listened to you and waited,
It would have all turned out so differently
I would have been living happily ever after,
With the one you had chosen for me to marry
Thank you for forgiving me for my disobedience,
I know that you love me and helped me to stand
You gently guided me away from that man,
Today I am so thankful for my safety
At the hands of one man so much took place,
All I can do now is to seek your face
I was broken into pieces like shattered glass,
It was you Lord that put me together again
You carried me during the storm of those days,
Gave me the strength to live through it all
Jesus, you are the bright light in the shadows,
You are my Prince of peace now and forever
I am thankful for all that you have done,
In You there is truth, You are the healing one
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