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By Stephen Kimball
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“It’s okay Dan”, someone said out of the silence of the room, “we’ve all been there…you’ll be okay.”
“Hello. My name is Dan, I’m an alcoholic.
This is difficult. I never wanted to have to stand before you like this.
I don’t enjoy admitting failure, but once again, I’m in trouble.
Almost eight months sober, until last Saturday night.
I don’t want to drink…obviously. I hate what it does to me.
But it calls me, and honestly, every day is a battle.
I resist, but eventually…historically, it has a way of wearing me down and overpowering me.
Jesus is my savior, this I know. He deserves every part of me.
Alcohol is the demon that lie in wait and seeks to destroy me. I know this too.
I’ve been in church. I’ve had counseling. I’ve been here.
I desire abstinence. To live a clean life…a holy life.
There are times when I am full and satisfied and happy, but then life and loneliness creep in on me and take me to places I don’t want to be.
I know the wickedness of my ways, and yet…
Saturday, the Devil came knocking, in the form of a phone call, and I let him in.
I knew who it was and I shouldn’t have picked it up.
‘You don’t have to drink’, she said. ‘Just come down to the pub for a bit, visit with your old friends. Everyone’s going to be there.’
When I saw the number light up, I was at that moment and I knew it. You know, that moment when you must choose which direction you will take; whether you quench the desire or allow it to spark a fire.
In that brief instant, between the phone buzzing and the decision to answer it, all my weakness; all my humanness pounded within my chest, like the crashing thunder that was sure to ensue.
Why did I even have her number in my phone?
Stupidity.
At the bar, my defenses held for a while, until they didn’t.
In the middle of it all, Jim called — my friend from church. Tried to throw me a life preserver, but I wasn’t having it. I got angry, angry over my own failure and lack of control really, but I took it out on him and said things I shouldn’t have.
Now, as I stand here, one DUI later and looking at jail time as a repeat offender, I feel tired and alone but resolute.”
“You’re not alone Dan”, encouraged the same friend who had spoken up a minute ago.
“No excuses this time. Nobody to blame but me.
Perhaps jail is what I need. Perhaps there I will find the restoration I seek. I would appreciate your prayers, that this consequence I have brought upon myself may, ironically, lead to true freedom from this…monster.
It might be a while, but I’ll be back here with you as soon as I possibly can.
Thank you for listening.”
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