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TITLE: The Throne of Grace | Previous Challenge Entry
By Mary Clark
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Thirteen years ago, Pulmonary Specialist diagnosed me with Chronic Obstruction Pulmonary Disease, known as COPD. They explained there was . . . no cure for this disease. The doctors said my smoking had caused it. They made me an appointment to return in three months: gave me a handful of prescriptions, and sent me home. Their job was over, but mine was just beginning.
My family and friends would make negative comments, concerning my health. Over time, I began taking their words to heart. “Mary, you poor dear, you look so rundown. I feel so sorry for you. Oh, my, you labor so hard to breath.”
Not only had I taken their words to heart, but also I believed them. Why not? They were people who loved me. Between my loved ones and my own negative thoughts, I did not stand a chance to live.
Survive; sure, I could survive in quicksand. Quicksand is a dangerous hidden trap that pulls you to your death. I was sinking in self-pity and fear. They too, are like quicksand, except, they break your spirit, causing some to commit suicide. Once you start sinking, it’s hard to kick your way back-up.
I was ready to have a big pity party. No, no need to invite others I had plenty. Then, I realized what I was doing. I was going against something that I held dear . . . my morals. What happened to my faith? How did the enemies of God sneak up on me?
Why do I call these negative feelings enemies of God? First, we understand that God is holy. His Spirit is positive energy, thus, nothing negative can come from Father God. Now I pray my confession will help others not to make the mistakes, I made.
I gave self-pity and fear permission to break my spirit, by believing everything negative that was said. Individuals, including our loved ones do not realize how powerful their words are. They would never intentionally hurt us, but we must be more aware of our word choices. As for myself, I was the one most at fault. I was well aware of these things, I had even written on the power of words, yet, in my weakness. . . .
I started crying and lifted my voice up to God. Through my tears, I went before the throne of grace. I confessed my weakness and took back my boldness of spirit. I decided not to allow COPD to run my life, but by God’s mercy and grace, I would run it.
I stand today, as a fearless warrior in the army of God. Fear has no place in this warrior’s life. Yes, I will live and not just survive.
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Thank you for your insight. I'm a firm believer that it is through our own trials and challenges that we are able to help those around us.
You came out smoking, stopped smoking and then with your excellant advice you were "smoking" again :)
Good job! Excellant insight.
Nice to know you also made the decision for eternity whether you wanted "smoking or non-smoking".