Poetry
Father, there's something
that's bothered me for quite a while.
You've known about it,
and I know You've probably been waiting
for me to come to You with my concerns.
I feel I've alienated myself
from many people.
I'm not a professional speaker
and in the throes of emotion
I know I can be misunderstood.
So before I go any further,
Thank You for helping my to make
a conscious effort to control
that wild animal inside of me.
If it is Your will, Father,
help me be understood
as I continue making
a conscious effort to walk by faith.
It's my walk, Father,
that many don't understand.
I've made it no secret
that I've made a conscious effort
to turn away from
the lifestyle I've known all my life.
I'm not doing it because I believe it's wrong,
nor do I condemn anyone who is gay.
If I have, forgive me, Father.
It's just that with this inner conflict
going on inside of me,
I'm left with more guilt than happiness
when I seek pleasure with a man.
When I share Your word,
I'm not trying to get people to change,
I'm just sharing Your Words
that have brought me
to this place in my faith.
I'm not trying to change myself
because I know
I can't do that.
Especially on my own,
without You.
I've felt the nudge of the Spirit
telling me to go back to church.
Honestly, I'm afraid to,
because I feel from being misunderstood
I won't be accepted by those
who once accepted me.
It's not my fault
my consciousness is attacked by guilt.
I would rather live without the guilt
than to act on the desire of my flesh
and torment my own self by doing so.
It wasn't tormented by guilt before,
but before, I did't have any type
of relationship with You.
And I'm not saying
those who don't feel guilt
don't have a proper relationship
with You.
I know, each of us, are at different
levels in our faith with You.
If it is Your will, Father,
that I do go back to the church
I once attended,
then I ask that the Spirit
please provide the courage to do so.
Because I don't have it right now.
And I'm also fearful, Father,
of becoming comfortable
while things are going good for me.
If it is Your will, Father,
please provide me with the wisdom
to make the correct choices
that keep me in Your will.
And I ask, Father,
if it is Your will,
may the Spirit heal
every misunderstanding
concerning this issue for me.
I ask this in Jesus' name,
Amen.
Holy, Holy, Holy, Lord God Almighty,
Who was, and is, and is to come.
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