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By Jamie Pittenger
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Thoughts returned as the dust retreated and I pondered again the world of relativities I found myself a part of. Among the myriad of present thoughts the greatest question of the moment was, “What role am I to play in this life that I have found myself a part of?” At the same moment the most fearful question concerned whether I did have a role to play at all. I long for a role to play, a trade to excel in which would lend the creation and revelation of an identity that is mine uniquely. As I longed for such awareness a strong, silent voice captured my thought. Breaking from my own and listening instead to His thoughts, I was reminded of my true journey toward identity; an identity revealed not in the things, but in the longings of this world. And on it went, as thought processes do, until I found myself slowly relinquishing control of my mind’s anxiety into the Creator’s hands.
His gentle grip took hold of my heart, softening it with His embrace; an embrace far different from any known in the world. My mind, which had signaled angers attack in response to wounds in my heart, was defeated by the presence of a stronger power. He who reigns within this heart has covered me with His blood and so from the wound in my heart the Blood of His Peace which surpasses all understanding began to flow freely with healing. Desire for understanding was strong, and bore only the bitter fruit of anger when I was unable to obtain my goal. Yet stronger still, and always, is the Blood of Christ.
My longing was rooted in desire for identity that was my own, yet all I own is indebted to the Love of Christ, who paid for me with the Blood that flows over me as a garment. My identity is His; His identity is mine. We both, sharing this identity, will carry always the scars of cross which weigh us down in the journey through life; and I am honored again to understand to richness of this, the greatest of understandings. I have taken His name, as a bride her husband, and in Him alone do I find the Foundation upon which every longing in my heart is built. No heart can find its home away from the foundation upon which it has been built.
Sighing contentedly I walk from my car and meet the cool breeze of the night as it travels down the mountain side, greeting me with the most fragrant of gifts from the flowers above. I look again and see the moon peeking out behind the chapel’s steeple, as if ashamed for hiding from my gaze earlier in the night. Smiling, I leave the shadows of the chapel, raise my hands, and lift my face, allowing the brilliance of the moonlight to wash over me entirely. Clothed there in its light, as a bride prepared beautifully dressed for her husband, all loneliness melts away replaced instead by the presence of True Love. Reaching down through the clouds of what had been a dark night, His presence meets me on the moonlit path in response to the break I made from the anxieties of the world which sought to own me. Relishing this moment, knowing light in the darkness, all fears are replaced by my Father’s Perfect Love. Finding freedom from the shadows of confused thought surrounding who I am, and find instead the eternal peace of the Great I AM.
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