Maybe if I’d tried harder,
run faster, held tighter,
I could have kept you.
Maybe if I’d found a way
to pierce through your steel resolve
and expose your reasons,
I could have held on.
Maybe my immediate needs
exceeded yours
and I should have extended
my self-imposed time line;
I’ll never know.
Maybe my dreams of gauze
were too fragile
to withstand the brutal winds
of your discontent
and disappointment;
I can’t be sure.
I only know I tried
and cried;
but ultimately
I failed.
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This is such a sad poem, a poem of deep emotion, of longing for acceptance. I hurt for the person who is experiencing this. We all know what failure is, but this cry of "Maybe" if I had tried harder, I would not have failed you, really wrenches at my heart. I am not sure if it is the heartcry of a lover or spouse who has failed, but it sounds like it. I can't imagine having feelings like that, as my husband and I have such love for each other. But I know many whose marriage has failed, and one partner feels like a failure. Good writing, Mariane, but then, I have read many of your writings, and I haven't found one that isn't good!
Dear Mariane,
Thank you so much for your comment on, 'The Signal at the Corner'. Now I am getting tears because it is so Godly precious to "connect with you", dear writer and daughter of the King, that YOU are!" I love it that our living Lord has so many way to give us all "a signal".
I dearly love your talent in expressing, and look forward to knowing you through your work. Have an extra special day today!! Love in Jesus, Jacque
Again, Mariane, this poem ..."Maybe"...is so touching! It goes way down into a place that I'm sure has pools of tears. I do believe that all these deep places of regret have our Master's loving hand reaching out. I have experienced this poem in a fashion...Oh, that I just curl up on Father's lap, and He hushes me.
Love, Jacque
